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I Am Addicted

I thought that would get your attention. But it is true.

I am addicted. I can’t get through most days without thinking about it.

Situations arise, and my mind goes where it shouldn’t go. How I can get what I shouldn’t get. How can I watch what I shouldn’t watch?

I’ve known a very long time I was addicted. I just dealt with it the best I could.

Which as it turns out wasn’t very good, but what do they say about spilt milk? No tears, regrets, but no tears.

I think psychologists would say that I have an “addictive” personality.

One of the major reasons I got into ‘Religion’ was that it showed me how I could overcome this addiction.

Oh, I guess you’re wondering what my nemesis is. Doesn’t matter, if it makes me feel good or escape from reality (or even a present problem), I am addicted to it. Jewish sages call it the ‘Yatser Hara’ … the evil inclination.

I overcame various addictions in various ways. I was forced, cajoled, brainwashed, etc. but one of the better ways was to convince myself of the harm done.

I’m going to fire off an e-mail to Amazon about their lousy programming. I’ve already cancelled Netflix. I like Amazon Prime because of the free shipping but the free ‘soft’ porn is not helping. Amazing what is considered ‘soft’ today was XXX in the ’60s.

Anyway, I need to get to studying and my day, thought I would get this off my chest.

Have a blessed day and if you too are addicted, hang in there. Fight it with all you’ve got and you will overcome.

That’s how I do it anyway.

October 23, 2017 at 9:42 am Leave a comment


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